A Strange Place (part 1)

Are you in a strange place? Life can be a strange place. What's in your head versus the reality of your life can be discouraging.

Below is a scene. Consider a person, like you -in a strange place. These are his thoughts and fears...can you relate?

Everyone is doing better than me. I tried them all but there are no quick fixes...what to do, what to do. Trust in God? Isn't there something I can do? Why can't I fix it? Hmm...I'll throw a pitty party since I can't fix it now. Surely, someone will come to my delightful affair, see my plight, have the solution in hand and fix things right away! Ok...that didn't quite work as planned.

Aha! I've got it! I'll complain! Surely complaining will get someone's (hint, hint) attention! He'll have no other choice than to help me. After all, who wants to listen to someone complaining? At the same time, maybe he'll be ashamed of himself for not having helped me when I needed it so now to redeem himself, he'll have to help me.

He must be deaf! I mean after all I've done to get his attention. Ooh! Maybe he's not paying attention and doesn't give a care. That must be it! He doesn't care. After all, if I were him and it were me, and I saw someone like me in need I would rush right in and help them. Man, if I had what he had then no one (including me) would ever feel like I do. I can't believe he doesn't care. Surely he must. Why doesn't he hear me? Screw it. I'll figure something out...

Damn it! I'll just quit! It's been too long and nothing. That's it, I'll just quit and give up. If I give up, then I'm not responsible because I gave up...it was too hard. If the situation would have been easier or if someone (hint, hint) would have helped me then I would be OK. I did all I could to fix it and mind you with no help. I prayed and he didn't answer NOR did he attend my party. I thought he would stop me from quitting but didn't do that either -he let me quit!

I have no idea where I am...I am in a strange place. Nothing looks familiar to me -including myself. No one is here with me; I am all alone. All I can do is think about the past and how great it was before I got here. I wish I could find my way out. I cry, but no one hears me. I scream, but no one helps me. I have no more hope and am in despair.

I am in a strange place. I have exhausted all possibilities. I am too tired to run and too tired to feel sorry for myself. I want to get out of here.

Are you in a strange place now in your life? Do you feel powerless? Do you feel like throwing in the towel? Share your thoughts...